Well, it is happening again...I am on First Date Eve. While this has a slight holiday ring to it, like Christmas Eve or New Year's Eve, it is NOT a holiday. It is the night before a first date. Not my first date ever, just the first date with this new friend. Well, I have already had time to panic, freak out, over think, and over analyze. Fortunately for me I have the most amazing support system. I have gone over almost every detail of my short friendship with this person in my head, to my mom, my sister, my best friends, my co-workers who are also some of my very best friends and they have patiently listened and talked me down off the crane! They have encouraged me, sometimes forcefully, to go and have a good time. I must say, I would love to go and have a good time. I even have begun to look forward to the event, but there are still a few jitters inside.
I can honestly say I have begun to feel excited about going to dinner tomorrow night. I have picked out what I am going to wear, which is new (always good!), I have shoes (wish they were new and so does my friend Hayley, smile),I have chosen my accessories, I know the location, and the time! In fact, I even know my friend better now. We have actually talked a few different times today which has really put me more at ease!
I have no idea how this will turn out...I can't even guess, because if I begin guessing than I will begin thinking about every possibility of the evening and how I feel, and how he feels, which will then put pressure on me and then I will begin to rethink which leads to the over thinking and the over analyzing and can bring on a full blown panic attack! Don't scoff in disbelief thinking I am exaggerating. I assure you that even though I have been known to over dramatize things...this is the truth. I have caused myself to have a panic attack over a date-just in anticipation, and I have made myself physically sick. I don't know why, can't answer that one for you! However, I have been praying for a long time for a guy to meet me and just be interested in me. I hate blind dates and internet dating...for one reason because they have not been successful for me (obviously, or I wouldn't be single) and the second reason being, if they don't know me or haven't seen me I must worry about what they will think of my physical appearance, my personality, my outfit, and if I talk too much (probably:)) so that is why I prefer for a guy to meet me and then want to take me out. This has not happened in awhile so it was a lovely surprise when I met this guy just 2 weeks ago while hanging out with my friend Stretch, and we became friends. Then he asked me out! I am loving that I prayed that would happen one day and BOOM! the Lord answered that specific prayer.
I have no idea what will happen at dinner tomorrow night or after dinner. This may be the one and only date or it may develop into more dates...but regardless of the outcome I am thankful that I prayed to the Lord and He heard my request!
I'll keep you posted on the dating situation! And I might even get a picture on here of my outfit, but no promises. There is a great chance I will chicken out of that one! :)
So, time for bed, I would hate to have dark circles under my eyes tomorrow night! :)
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